T.O.P, please don’t blame yourself.

Sacrifices He Made.

Big Bang, was a group which was his family and safe space. But, he left this group, so the members wouldn’t suffer anymore. He sacrificed his mental health, bonds and friendships, just so no one else suffers.

But, the truth has always been, that it was never his fault. He tried his best, every single time, he apologised even when he shouldn’t have. He chose to suffer in silence, rather than let others into his heart, because he was afraid to hurt others. 

Pain He Suffered.

He suffered so much, he didn’t deserve any of this pain. He did community service for 2 years, worked through depression, and couldn’t be a singer for a lot of years, even though music is his life. He chose to isolate himself, he chose to bear the pain, and bear the loneliness. 

Love He Deserves.

He doesn’t know how loved he is. Perhaps, the people who hurt him and hated him, were never truly his fans. Because his actual fans could never make him go through such hell. He deserves all the love this world can offer him, he deserves recognition for his brilliant work, he deserves appreciation for being such an amazing idol to us, brother to Big Bang. 
He is an idol, in all sense. So many people look up to him. They’ve learnt how to be a good person by seeing him, they’ve learnt how to be strong and face all difficulties of life. He’s not just an idol, he’s a saviour to some.

Your Mistake Doesn’t Make You A Bad Person.

You’re a human, T.O.P. You make mistakes, you learn from them, and grow. Everything that you had to go through because of this one mistake, was not fair. No one has the right to tell you how to live your life, no one has the right to tell you that you shouldn’t be an idol. You might think that you deserve the hate. YOU DON’T. Watching your most recent interview, I felt that you blame yourself a lot, and have a lot of guilt. Please. Let go of that guilt. It’s not easy, but you have to. Whatever happened, it’s not your fault. And I hope that someday, you can learn that people hated you unfairly. I hope you know that the Big Bang members don’t hate you. I hope that you know we have never hated you. Please, love yourself. You’re an amazing person, I hope you know that. We appreciate you. You should appreciate yourself. 

We Love You. 🫶🏼

You’re not alone. We will always be here. We will support you. We know it’s not your fault. It’s time that you also know it’s not your fault. Don’t blame yourself. The wonderful memories you gave Big Bang are more than the hate they got. They love you.